Hello Dearest Readers,
Recently, i have been blessed through a fuller immersion of sacred work which involves deeper inner reflection and prayer, rather than outer expressiveness.
I will be writing again as soon as I perceive the guidance to do so.
Even as this is true, I wanted to check in and let those of you who might follow these posts, that I am well, receiving visions, praying, lighting vigil candles for those buried in mass graves, and praying with my ancestors for forgiveness. For some this may seem heavy and self-indulgent, yet, if your heart lends towards upholding the suffering, the filling of the heart with the gift of being able to serve, however humbly, is truly a blessing.
The energies have been especially intense, especially the energies of desecration which causes reactions such as seeking cleanliness - seeking to clean the house or my body - to counteract what is flowing through the heart and body, resonating with the corruption of hearts aligned with the energies of malfeasance.
with love, Johanna
11.29.23 - Checking In II - The Wolf
Hello Dear Readers,
After seven weeks of containing energies separated from love, holding the suffering in prayer, crying, waking up frequently through the night in sorrow, and processing the intense violence perpetrated upon the humanity of the Palestinian peoples, the deep sorrows of my soul which my heart was holding, released in an experience of deep weeping as I was watched a lone surviving wolf losing its mind in the Gaza zoo. Witnessing the penned in animals which were starved and killed broke open a flood of sorrows my heart has been holding in prayer in the presence of unmitigated violence. When the caretakers would come to feed the animals, soldiers would shoot them.
Seeing this wolf which had descended into madness was too much for this sorrow filled heart. To witness the wolf, a noble creature of freedom, community, and family losing its mind to the madness of human violence and cruelty was just too much after these weeks of watching human beings being desecrated and dehumanized. All blessings to the suffering.
No Alone In Experiencing Intense Sorrow:
Dear Readers, In my long blessed life, I have never heard, nor read so many comments of people sharing how they cannot stop crying as the sorrows filling their hearts is so intense. I have heard adults, calling into talk shows, crying and weeping at the suffering of the helpless. Whilst witnessing this is painful, it is also comforting in the knowing that we are sharing and holding the sorrows of the suffering together, that our humanity is rising in the presence of energies which seeks dehumanize.
A final note. Dear Readers, I have been experiencing challenges in accessing the inner peace of creativity as my neighbors, are again, cutting down old growth trees on their property - as is their right. This is the second time in a year. The sounds of the saws, trees crashing to the ground and the endless grinding, (the trees were saved for milling) has filled this sanctuary for two weeks throughout the day. My heart mourns the loss of so many trees. Since the migration of city peoples into this wooded area during the covid outbreak, I am continually amazed at how those who choose to move into wooded areas, move in and cut down the trees on their property so that, (the aesthetics witnessed after), they can experience more sunlight. The impact on the climate of this area and wildlife will be felt for years.
Prayers for the three young Palestinian students in Vermont cruelly shot as a stochastic response to rampant, media permissive, anti-Muslim and anti-Palesitinian rhetoric.
Prayers for peace Dear Readers. Prayers for peace.
with love, Johanna
12.1.2023: Peace returns to the wood, as crow surveils the new terrain, squirrels squabble for new nesting. The felling comes to an end. Amen.
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