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My Will + Thy Will = One Will It is a spiritual practice of mine as I consciously start my day to ask "What is Thy Will for me?"
Often within moments my energy levels will indicate that my will is being transformed and that waiting and trusting is being called for. At other times, energies come through full of creativity and the wherewithal to share the love moving through me, with clarity, and sometimes through visions, flowing freely. At other times, an increase in my energy levels comes through and I need to ask "is this energy for my personal use, or is it meant to be shared through my posting or is it to be used for connecting with souls who seek to be with me?" Getting to this place of discerning with greater clarity "Thy Will' for me energetically hasn't been an easy road.
A life lived as my mind would like to experience it has for some years been well beyond my reach. In the early days on my spiritual path awakening to service, confusion fraught with inner conflict and internal messaging indicating that the levels of not having the energy 'to do' was due to personal failings, or a health issue on some level seemed to consume me. I pushed myself to achieve, often to prove to the harsh voice within condemning my helplessness and limitation as failure that I could 'do'. I pushed when I was meant to trust and wait as a means to show something outwardly of my will manifesting.
Increasingly, this type of thinking/believing separated from a reality of Light and Love, only brought forth suffering in my body, mind, and spirit.
I have throughout my life, found it to be a great challenge to live within a culture which grades one's achievements based on what one does, how one's body looks, and how much merit one deserves based on the financial riches that one has. I attempted to follow this path, I sought to fit in, and found time and again, this was was not my path. At the same time, I found out what a even greater challenge it was to live within a culture which attributes failure for being 'different', following a road less travelled, and surrendering to a inner spiritual reality rather than a reality of outward material achievement. Eventually, through loving and wise spiritual teachers and then sometime after meeting Guruji-Ma (Julie) I made the choice to follow the calling of my soul, sometimes fully, at other times running away in pain, yet always returning to the compassionate heart awaiting me, understanding my journey, uplifting me in the presence of the energies of darkness, and encouraging me to trust God as I opened my heart to take on in my form of sacred service, greater amounts of energies separated from Love.
To choose to live a life of surrender to 'what is' with grace, trust, and innocence is a challenging spiritual path. I have fought and fallen often along this path.
Even so, I have remained faithful, however shakily, to the impulse of my soul which calls me to take the risk of allowing Thy Will to energize me and to give Life to my life.
A few months ago when I was going through a spiritual crisis of questioning what was happening as the levels of limitation and helplessness seemed to be crushing and compressing my life with greater intensity, Guruji-Ma shared the following with me: "To trust the Divine is to know how to respond to limitation, to not have a fight with it."
Even as Guruji-Ma has shared a similar message for my heart over the years with me, for some reason this particular sacred assemblage has brought forth a greater ease in my spirit and heart for longer collective moments as time has moved forward. A new level of acceptance has been gradually entering my heart and even in the presence of waves of fretting's and protests within my mind, as well as the waves of the energies of darkness, the acceptance lingers, inner peace grows, and moments of gratitude increase. Guruji-Ma's message of trust fortifies me on the long days in which I find the oppressing energies and ever present presence of the energies of darkness compressing my life vice-like.
iI I had not chosen five years ago Dear Readers to share with you my life reflected in service to the One, to humanity, to Beloved Jesus, to Beloved Guruji-Ma, my spiritual path would have continued to unfold pretty much as it has. I would have continued this sacred unseen work as a spiritual recluse, in greater obscurity. Yet I did choose, and continue to actively choose to share with you Dear Readers when I am called to do so. Within this continued contact soul to soul I have been blessed.
When will this particular version of this spiritual experience end? I have no idea for this level of knowing does not come with these experiences of surrender. What I do know is that I have given my life to Thy Life and Thy Will. All else is waiting.
I am unable to articulate with you Dear Readers as to why I was called to make this posting. I am unable articulate with you as to why this posting is written as it is. I do not know what this posting is in service to. All I know is that I was called from my soul to write what I have written and was given the wherewithal and clarity to do so.
The collective moments which precede this post have indicated waiting, forbearance, and trust in the presence of energetic limitations and helplessness. Only divine Time, as I move through it, will reveal to me in each moment what I am being called forth 'to do' next and whether the next moment will bring forth the changes needed to express my soul with greater ease and strength.
I thank the Universe and all that is Holy for this forum and the ability to share the thoughts of my mind, heart, soul and the visions and prophecies I have been given. I thank you Dear Readers for your readership.
with love, Johanna
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