Recently, a long standing painful situation has crested from the unconscious level of my awareness into greater conscious awareness.
Whilst the journey through the many unconscious labyrinths of behavior, karma, and spiritual lessons has been at times excruciatingly painful, the journey through the dark tunnel or dark night of my soul in which I felt that there seemed to be no seemingly positive answers, choices, or way through, is ending.
This issue I am encountering through my free will choice to be in relationship with this person, I find, is also my issue. As I awaken to the previously hidden patterns of negative behaviors manifesting through someone I deeply respect and love, I am becoming aware that that which is manifesting as unconscious repetitive negative behaviors, is at the root of their souls suffering. Suffering which I cannot heal, for an embodied soul has the free will choice to continue on the path of suffering, or to reach out and ask for help as they seek to heal and become whole. I can be a point of light, an inspiration and a voice of hope through my experiences, yet it is not I who heals.
I see now how for me there are many teachings in this situation where the suffering has been hidden, yet predominant as an energy creating separation and conflict. These teachings are for the edification and growth of my soul, no matter what the soul I am engaged with decides to do or not do. Accountability and responsibility for choices I have previously made that were similar to this persons suffering are coming to the fore of my consciousness, as well as a deep sigh of relief for the worst of the suffering in regards to my part in allowing the flow of energies which were not aligned with the frequencies of Light and Love, is now over. My suffering is not over. Cutting off the person whom I love who is bringing this form of suffering to my heart, would end temporarily the suffering, yet in the future, another with the very same soul wound would come forth, because what they bring at the core of their sufferings are soul teachings for me as to how to be with the suffering of another, without being compromised or overwhelmed by their experiences of suffering. What is the 'principle of light' that may be applied to pain? It is this: That a 'way through' can be found in the presence of any level of difficulty. This does not mean that the difficulty itself will disappear, only that if one asks, if one reaches, the means will be given to get through it emotionally, physically, mentally, or spiritually.
...God's love is present in this interpretation of reality, although some might think that the obliteration of pain itself would be a far greater expression of love. Nevertheless, that outcome can only become possible through the circumstance of spiritual evolution creating a point at which pain as a teacher is no longer needed. Before that, it cannot simply be 'done away with.' Yet, in the presence of challenge, in the presence of pain, God's love expressed as the 'light of the soul' can shine through.THE PRINCIPLE of LIGHT in RELATION to PAIN and to the SOULby Julie http://lightomega.org/Ind/Pure/Principl ... -Pain.html No, in this particular instance, my suffering is not over yet, for there are things I need to learn and ways in which I need to grow in the Light and vibrational frequency so that I never become complicit (consciously or unconsciously) with these energies again. What is over Dear Readers is the contracted perceptual awareness previously held of being lost in the darkness, a feeling of being a prisoner to the whims of the energies of this particular form of darkness, and the over riding confusion as to what was happening - why it was happening, without the benefit of knowing how to grow through the experience - these obstructions to the Light are over.
There was a time in my life where my sufferings were so great, so painful, so limiting in scope and depth that I lost my faith in God. I could not understand how God as I understood God, could 'allow' suffering to happen. How could God, the Creator, the Omnipresent and Omnipotent, allow the darkness to reign, allow suffering to ravage so many souls. To this day Dear Readers, I cannot give you a clear answer to the why's and wherefore's of suffering, Buddhist teachings seem to grasp core truths in regards to suffering in ways in which I can mentally relate, and yet, even still, leave me questioning the nature or need of suffering, which the Purification Process has helped me to understand with real life experiences wrapped within the protective folds of faith, trust, and hope in the midst of suffering and pain.
There is still so much more learning for my human heart when it comes to the energies of suffering, Even still, when I witness some forms of suffering of another, or experience some forms of my own suffering, my heart still cries out in protest, and when I witness suffering which resonates within the frequencies ranges of savageness, ruthlessness and hardheartedness, I still find it hard to pray with compassion within my heart for the particular form of suffering this human being is carrying and acting out, so no, my suffering is not over yet.Access to soul awareness and truth may be covered over for many reasons, yet even in the presence of the deepest covering the truth of the soul is indelible. It can never be erased. It can never be diminished. One can only lose the feel for it. For this reason, in the midst of darkness one must seek with all one's might to anchor within the light of the soul, even if it cannot be felt in a tangible way.
The truth of the soul, the truth of life, the truth of the goodness of the One, remain as inherent qualities of knowing within one's own being.
This is the testament of hope that lives within each of us. It is what makes faith possible. It is what makes joy possible. And it is ultimately what will bring about the full transformation of the Earth into a planet of souls who live consciously and with full gratitude upon it.THE PRINCIPLE of LIGHT in RELATION to PAIN and to the SOULby Julie http://lightomega.org/Ind/Pure/Principl ... -Pain.html I do not know the purpose of all forms of suffering, although I do have a lifetime of personal experiences in which suffering featured prominently of which I have endured. What I have found, is that by the Grace of all that is holy and good and the Teachings I have learned from Beloved Julie, that if one is willing to go through the experiences, and if one is willing to learn from the experiences, grow from the experiences and open (not close) their hearts to Light and Love, even when the darkness, suffering and pain is most heavily upon ones heart and mind, that a way through can, and will be made. The way through the suffering and pain may not be what the ego is expecting, it may not be what the heart is expecting, yet from experience I can tell you it will be exactly what the soul needs to grow forward, as it ascends towards the Light.
with love, Johanna
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