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The energies I was perceiving coming into the earth plane this week began with a persisting frequency which caused my mind to perceive time as speeding up - oddly, at the same time, I perceived a fireball moving through numerous dimensions of time, coming forward from just behind me. At times in the presence of the accelerated energies, I simultaneously felt a internal need to run from this force of frequencies which eventually, left me feeling as if my inner self and various energy bodies were being swept up and carried away with the currents. As suddenly as these energies began, they ended, followed by a new frequency which felt dense and limiting.
I was sitting in the meditation room this afternoon when I became aware that the frequencies had shifted, and a force of pressure was manifesting, a pressure which felt most intense. It was a layered experience of perceiving the gravity field of the earth being pressed down, then the awareness of the pressure around me causing a sense of external compacting, then I became aware of the internal experience of feeling pressed - pressurized - down. This second energy and the feeling of intense pressure lasted for some time and was followed a few hours later by a frequency which I perceived to be both in the form of an explosion with a parallel/entangled frequency of rage, and wavelike, fast moving and rhythmic - forward flowing.
Each experience felt connected beginning with the fireball I first perceived myself running from a few days before which was companioned/entangled with the frequencies of time speeding up, then densifying and becoming pressure like which then exploded in a rhythmic wave like frequency which seemed to carry a vibrational signature/tone of rage.
I am not sure what I am describing. I felt guided to share this and I am doing so without being able to interpret anything about the unfoldment of the frequencies and events.
What I can share and describe is how I did not contain these energies.
Energies that are not love and that are not light are carried within each human being. They pass through us as emotions and as thoughts but they are not who we are. This is a fundamental tenet of purification.
…energies are in our bodies; they are also in our subconscious minds. They come and they go. They sweep through us in waves of emotional intensity, but eventually they subside. As souls, we can learn to observe the movement of energies within ourselves and to wait for them to pass without acting them out in words or deeds.
http://lightomega.org/Ind/Pure/Containment.html Even as I was given an awareness to the unfolding energetic events, I still allowed myself to get caught up in "doing", and did not stop "doing" and rest until the experience ended. Sometimes the 'not doing' can last for hours, days, weeks or months depending on the energies. Sometimes, I become stubborn and do not stop when I need to. My ego and fear work on me in tandem as there is so little I can physically do when the energies are moving through me. The pattern is that I usually lose humility and become stubborn in regards to the associated helpless which comes with the inability to stop the sacred experiences and processes until they are over. Experiences I have over the years, assured God that I was willing to endure and go through once I began seeing that this was an aspect of my holy work.
My experience has been that what is in need of purification will manifest again and again in time, until there is full consciousness of the underlying separation from Light, manifesting as a pattern and/or belief system - coupled with behavioural changes based in prayer, trust in God and surrender - which leads to an infusion of Light bringing with it new ways and choices and openings within the mind and heart which can heal any precedence of previous separated and karmic behaviours.
Sigh, even knowing what I just wrote above, Dear Readers, I still lost balance - again. It has to do with Thy Will and my will. In those moments in time when I have some energy for myself, 'I' most often want to express my self physically by 'doing' - often just catching up on everything I have not able to tend to.
Today was one of those days. I did not listen to my inner voice which was telling me I was overwhelmed internally whilst perceiving the frequencies as they were exploding outward and moving through me. I did listen to the messages of internal overwhelm, stop what I was doing and take time out to go sit on a rock or go in the house and rest. I pushed myself to finish what I was doing and as a result, coupled with the fatigue brought on by the intense frequencies moving through me, I lost my ability to contain the frequencies of rage I felt associated with the exploding energies I was meant to contain.
The last straw to my nervous system came when someone came into the area I was working in filled to the brim with energies they had collected as they moved throughout their day. The longer I stayed in the presence of these energies and engaged with the person carrying them, the more saturated I became with this new layer of dense, separated from Light energies which had begun intermingling with the intense energies I was seeking to contain. Later, I found myself having a verbal meltdown totally losing the energies I was meant to contain. Some time after this unfortunate release, after the shame associated with not containing hit me hard in my heart, I became able to stop justifying my need to be 'doing' and went to rest.1:
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How sad that twenty years and counting on, I still do not listen to my inner voice and continue to push to the back ground - my real work - transforming and containing energies. Especially now, as increases in the frequencies of Light are creating more and of greater intensity, events of energetic releasing, of longstanding, hidden frequencies of darkness - multidimensionally, planetary, and from the hearts and minds of humanity.This is a Purification Issue.After years of observing and witnessing this pattern and issues associated with feeling that I need to "do" comes the realization and deep belief that I need to prove I am contributing - outwardly - for others to see, so they will not think me lazy or lax. This consciousness is rooted in fear and my ego. It has taken so long to purify and heal this one issue. I continue to have a foot in both worlds and I am split. Neither fully in my sacred work, and neither fully able to participate in life as others do without a second thought each day.
This is a very old purification issue for me. Past and Present. I struggle with honoring when my sacred work is calling which usually means stopping everything and resting my body whilst the energies are moving through me and letting go of the feelings of guilt which comes with the helpless of knowing that I cannot 'do' more outwardly to show how much I appreciate all the help I am given. At the same time, I also struggle with the physical chaos and disorganization which builds around me, as I witness all that is in need of being taken care of, and I lose my grasp on humility then my trust in God, allowing the energies of frustration to become more meaningful then surrendering to the fact that I cannot control the chaos or what I can or cannot do.Purification is a sacred process that is meant to set mankind free, enabling life to be lived without pain and limitation from the perspective of the soul. It is a process that creates the possibility for individuals and for the Earth of living a sacred life.
And yet the trials of purification sometimes appear to outweigh its rewards, allowing one to feel that there is only difficulty and pain to get through, rather than a sacred process going on, initiated by light, and corresponding to God's intention to bless the Earth and all souls.
It is easy to believe this during a time in which the expansion of light is largely invisible, and one must trust this event based on belief and on one's inner knowing, rather than on a state of corresponding inner joy. Indeed, sometimes the difficulties of purification can appear almost insurmountable,.. creating heartache, fear, hopelessness, or anger -- all feelings that may have been present in the past to a lesser degree, that now clamor inside with greater insistence.
Because of the amplification of these feelings in the presence of greater light, what may appear to be taking place may be attributed mistakenly to deficits in one's character, in one's efforts at healing, or in one's relationship with God. None of these interpretations would be correct. For purification is the answer to the desire for healing and help. It is a drama of the past taking place in the present for which the conscious self ordinarily has little or no frame of reference. Its purpose is to eradicate limitation, and to create for the self, a new and sacred way of life.
With respect to the acceleration of the purification process on the planet, it is, without exception, produced, first, by the intensification of light upon the Earth; second, by one's own receptivity to that light; and third, by the intensity and scope of the needs that exist for healing. To 'do' less, to trust, and rest - these three things I have failed to do in unison far too many years, and that is an aspect of why there are times that I find it difficult to contain those energies which I am meant to contain and why, as an act of Grace, another layer of this pattern of separated consciousness is unfolding as a Purification issue.
Today I failed to contain the energies moving through me. I was tense about this and then let those energies go. I have made amends and by the Grace of All That Is, I have been forgiven. I am ready to accept whatever karma I have created as a result of my not containing today. My prayer ~ that I become willing to humble myself even more than I think I have, so that when frequencies are moving through me, I may choose to stop 'doing', and seek instead to rest, allowing my soul which operates within my sacred body, my sacred vehicle of consciousness, to do its holy work.
Thy Will not mine. I can say the words, but then later when it is crucial for me to remember, I forget these very same words of pledging surrender and put restrictions on the expression of Thy Will when my will wants to be doing and manifesting, rather than waiting, trusting, and resting.
I hope the sharing of this Purification experience was helpful.
with love,
JohannaDuring the trials of purification, one's inner being may know one thing, while the body, mind, and emotions may feel something quite different. The deeper self may, for example, feel connected to God's truth, while mind and emotions feel separated, causing the conscious self to feel alone and without help. This situation, despite its intensity, can be met through the strengthening of love which can carry one through the trials of purification.
Feeling or asking to feel God's love, feeling the love of others for oneself, feeling one's own love for God, for other souls, and for the life of the Earth -- these are all things that can become stronger in the presence of greater light. They do not eliminate the challenges that are often present, but they surround them with compassion and uphold them with understanding.
Blessed are those who may enter the trials of purification in a state of awakeness, and who can go through the experience with God as companion, rather than without.
Blessed are those who may find within themselves the love that endures in the face of all difficulty, that is devoted to the light, and that seeks the healing of the self and of the Earth in the presence of every level of challenge.http://lightomega.org/Ind/Pure/Trials-Purification.html 0:
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UPDATE 4/28/15: "The second event which has the signature energies of rage has not manifested as yet." The second event which carried the vibrational signature/tone of rage had to do with the sufferings of the Americans of African decent in Baltimore Maryland who began protesting and then exploded in rage for the brutal "nickel ride" = being beaten by cops and shackled and handcuffed in the back of the police van without being harnessed in, as the police officers speed up and take sharp turns. This treatment in the end, left Freddie Gray with 80% of his spine severed which lead to his death. See links below.
All Blessings to the suffering. Both in Nepal and for the Americans of African decent being brutally beaten and killed in the United States.
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