Meg Meg:
Dear Johanna,
I have to share, I laughed out loud at your post because I could also relate so well. Right before ( literally 1 minute) last week's OWM sitting..I was well prepared, in silence, in prayer waiting to log on to the phone group when the door flings open and my beloved starts to walk in to get something from a closet!!!
My reaction was one word, he looked at me and backed out immediately. Later he told me he didnt realize the time was so close & apologised.. this event was a gift, as it allowed me to "see" myself and acknowledge the fierce flash reaction I experienced. I felt anything BUT Zen in that second. Something for me to learn from because I know that without any word, just my presence of sitting, waiting, would have been enough to signal him to leave. I am learning..
Been there Meg, and it has been m-e-s-s-y!- I like how your gracefully phrase the experience as 'anything BUT Zen'!
Indeed we are on this journey - sometimes it feels to me as if in the face track - of living our truth in the moment - I feel I am tested (sometimes instantly) as to my 'truth' even more when I am seeking to live more consciously and when I share with others the stories of my path.