Purifying And Healing The Collective Heart
Hello Dear Readers,
I was remembering in a meditation this morning of a time in the 1990’s when a vision of my inner darkness, some would call my shadow, came to me. At the time I drew this vision. It was a horrifying sight of the energies in form which I had unconsciously carried in my heart. The vision was all in the color black, the form disgusting to the eye and corrupted, and from its eyes flowed tears.
In reflection I can see the darkness my heart had identified with which I thought was empowering and protecting me was a sorrow to my soul, bringing me experiences of chaos, pain, and suffering.
Through the years of practicing the Purification Process, I have transformed, through the energies of Grace, Light, and Love, much of the energies that formed this vision. I chose Dear Readers, to do the difficult work of letting go of the energies, the consciousness, which gave false promises to my heart. I chose repeatedly to let go of the energies which informed my mind that they would protect me, empower me, and prevent my being hurt by others if I would align with them. I faced over the years, that which was unlike love in my heart and consciousness to become more loving in thought, words, actions, and deeds.
I faced the anger I carried, the fears, the guilt, the shame, the remorse, the pain - my pain and the pain I had caused others to feel. Through the active actions grounded in the willingness to change, I faced my self, began letting go of the past, learned how to forgive, learned how to stop blaming, and learned how to surrender.
I write of this journey Dear Readers because upon awakening this morning after receiving visions of the energies I was perceiving, I realize it is time to come face to face with a similar purification experience.
This time it is my heart as a part of the collective heart.
There are I am realizing, many embodied souls who are not ready, some not willing, to take that deep look inside of themselves and identify that which is not love within them and to heal.
My soul has known this, yet my heart, at times naive, thought that the suffering, pain, and chaos we had been enduring together for the last four years was a shared experience. It has not been shared, like a split consciousness or heart, it seems for the purposes of analogy, half of us have been horrified and longing for healing and half of us are not ready to let go of the inner energies of separation, hate, ‘owning’, prejudices, biases and all manner of hardness of heart. There all still many who feel empowered by the energies of separation.
There is a sadness of heart I am feeling that with this knowing also comes the knowing that more suffering is to come until the hardened of heart choose of their own free will to let go of the energies which cause separation and pain and choose to love one and Other. As I write, within my mind I can hear my self saying, pleading, "let me be wrong, let me be wrong".
No matter who ultimately ‘wins’ this election, these energies I have spoken of are still active and souls are still awaiting, behind hardened hearts for the freedom they truly long for.
With love and a heart longing for a more loving and respectful future together, Johanna
First published November 4, 10:00 a.m.
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